Yeah! I was able to find some fast enternet that alows me to upload pictures! I hope you enjoy them!

This is our lovely house in Madonsa Swaziland. Were there are usually 17 of us living, but tonight some other AIM teams are coming through and there will be about 31 of us.

 Saturdays are our Family Ministry days and for one of them we went out and cleared the land with Machetis and bush wakker for a new kitchen and we gave away  shoes to all the kids. it was a great day and I had so much fun playing with these kids afterward.

My whole team on another Family Ministry day!

Thursday my team and I are going to South Africa for five days for a prayer retreat. Please keep us in your prayers that we would have safe travels and that this weekend would revive us as we draw closer to God and get rested up for the last two months of ministry we have left.

Thank you so much for all of your prayers. The last week and a half been so much better for me and taught me to never underestimate the prayers of HIS saints. I don't even know where to begin or what it is that is so different, But I feel, for the first time since being back in January, that I belong here and I am enjoying it.  Praise the Lord!

Last Tuesday I was able to go out into the bush with the medical Missionary couple that I meet.  It was amazing! They run one of the most amazing medical programs I have even seen. They go out every other day and run a medical clinic, Eye clinic, Pharmacy, HIV testing, show the Passion of the Christ, and give away free Bibles and Medicine to hundreds of people each day.   And they do it all by themselves with a team of about 11 Swazi nationals that they have trained.  When I went with them I was able to follow around Mrs. Vanderwall, be her assistant, work in the Pharmacy, and do HIV testing. It was a very long day and I was gone for over 13 hours, but it was perhaps one of the greatest days I've had in Africa. But alas all good things can't last forever, that is of course with the exception of our eternal salvation, I will not be able to go back out with this couple far at least another week and I still have no idea if it could be a permanent internship for me after that. Please continue to pray that that will be an option for me.

The rest of this past week and a half has been slow and very difficult for me in ministry, has the girl who I do ministry with has been down with shingles and is just now recovering.  But I have been making friends with several people at the market and have even meet a few people at the Hope House (the Hospice) who we've been visiting and doing small chores for. Well I must be going soon. Thanks again for all your prayers. God Bless

Hello friends and family.

 The last two weeks have taken me on a roller coaster of emotions. Since writing my last blog I have been very confused as to the direction the Lord was leading me. The things that I wished to do had fallen though and I was very discouraged and I was seriously contemplating weather this was where the Lord wanted me, or if I would be better off back home in the States where I could get a job and prepare for college. But then something would happen and I would feel a little more optimistic about what the Lord had for me here as a new internship possibility opened up about working at a clinic, which is just what I was looking for and was better than the first door that the Lord closed on me. Only a day later I discovered that the spot at the clinic had just been taken the day before. And I was back to my thoughts on going home. So the ride continues and after a few days I meet with lady who prayed with me and really encouraged me to stick it out and told me of another clinic in town where she thought I might me able to volunteer. And so I was going to give it another try when I found out that I girl from the other FYM team here in Swaziland who was also interested in the same stuff as I am had just gotten a call from the very same clinic and was going to be working there. Once again I plummeted from the rising hopes of finding an internship that is in some way connected to the medical field where I wish so badly to serve. This now brings me up to only the last few days were again things are beginning to formulate again there is a Hospice in town where I might be able to help out at, and only yesterday at a new Church that we have been going to did I meet a missionary couple who run a huge traveling clinic out in the rural areas of Swaziland. They said that they would love for me to come along with them and their team and I got their numbers so that we could talk more about it. This could be such an amazing opportunity! But I feel my anticipation rising. Could I handle it if this falls though?

I am trying to be brave and stick it out but after being here only two and a half weeks and having my plans and hopes dashed so many times I truthfully am about ready to quit. Yet God has called me here to Swaziland. This whole past year has been a picture of how God has provided for me and brought me to this place, but I don't understand where He has gone just now. I can't see Him very clearly. Why has it seemed as if God has stopped providing for me in the middle of my trip? I am so confused. Is He trying to teach me patient endurance; will I have to do what I do not enjoy doing. Have I stopped relying on Him the way I ought to; is He trying to bring me back to a place of total reliance on Him. Or is my time in Africa up, has the purpose of this trip already been accomplished. Do I need to go home to prepare for college and get a job or is it just my "flesh" that desires to take the easy road out and go home? I have so many questions and no answers.

Please pray that my roller coaster ride stops here, and that these new opportunities would not fall through. Pray that the missionaries I meet will take me on and that I would me useful to them in their work and be a blessing to them. And pray that I would continue to dig in deep in search of all that God has for me, and grow in His knowledge and understanding.